Joy
I’ve just got a job recently and just finished my medical checkup today… Thank God, everything went so well for me.. But that’s the problem..
It all begins when I received the confirmation the day after the interview and try to share the joy I got…
But after I’ve posted it on the G-buzz.. I begin to wonder… Is it the right thing to do? And I believe that I’ve been too impulsive.. After I review what I’ve done, I regret to post it on G-buzz.. I shouldn’t have done it..
Then, the question is Why? What’s wrong with sharing the joy?
I know that there’s nothing wrong with sharing the joy itself. But the problem is sharing it with the wrong person at the wrong time..
I could have burden my friend’s thought about finding job and increase their pressure. Sigh.. I wish I could just “shut up” and share it to the right person at the right time (as some says, it’s easier to be sad with those who are sad than to be happy with those who are happy -> esp, while you’re not)
Though I believe most of them will say that they’re fine with it and they’re truly happy for me, but I also believe that I’ve put pressure and burden some of them…
Romans 12:15
“Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.”
Complication
Today, I’ve just finished my FYP presentation. But the main story for today’s post is not about the presentation itself, but more to my condition for the whole day..
I started today with around 4-5 hours sleep to prepare for the presentation and I woke up with influenza and light headache, but still fit for presentation.
After the presentation, I settled some minor things in NTU and drenched in sweat because of the hot weather and my formal shirt, then the hives (urticaria) start coming.. sigh..
After I went back home to take a rest, my headache became worse then I try to take a nap..
After the nap, I really feel uncomfortable with my body then I realize that the hives (urticaria) is all over my body.. (This is the worst of all time and really scary T.T) and it really makes me worry and feel helpless.. then I pray (this really help me a lot)
Now, the hives are mostly gone, though I’m still down with fever, flu and light headache.. Tomorrow I still need to submit the FYP final report with some minor editing, Wednesday and Thursday with interview, Friday to settle hall issues and hopefully God will provide me the strength for this whole week..
But above all, I’m thankful to Him that still allow me to live till now.
Acceptance
Issues:
- Why is it hard to accept others’ opinion which differs from ours?
- Why they can’t understand something this simple?
- Can’t they see what’s wrong in their opinion?
- Why they can’t accept me/my opinion?
Lessons learned:
- Be humble (1 Peter 5:6, Ephesians 2:8-9)
- Never think that you/your view is the best (John 14:6)
- Everyone is unique
- Remember that you (everyone) are a disciple (heart to learn)
- Reflect back on yourself (Have you done what you want others do unto you?)
- It’s not about you but it’s all about Him (1 Corinthians 10:31)
May God become “bigger” and I become “smaller”
(Will elaborate it later on :P)
“Companion”
Finally can go back to my blogging activity after having these 2 days exam 🙂
(Thank God that everything went well)
Okay, so tonight’s post is about “companion”. What I mean by “companion” in this post is the one that accompany me throughout my study and help me to relax
It start from the time when I’m quite saturated to study, and I try to browse through youtube.. But, what should I watch? I’m planning to listen to some songs, especially the old one for reminiscing the past 😀 Then I try to remember some of the first Japanese song that I listen to.. Is it Ayumi? or is it Boa? Ow.. I remember.. It’s Utada Hikaru (Hikki) – Sakura Drops.. I remember that time I watch her video clip in MTV and I absolutely love it.. She has such a powerful and wonderful voice..
Then, here is my “companion”
(I’ve been listening to her songs for the past 4 days.. And I absolutely love it :D)
here is another one.. one of my all time favorite
Give thanks
Just finished watching Glee season 1 episode 9..
For those who don’t know.. Glee is an American TV series about a musical school club named Glee.. Singing and dancing with some stories of life. (This is the first musical TV series I’ve ever watched and it’s kinda awesome :D)
okay, so in this episode there’s a story about people with disability and down syndrome… It just makes me wanna thank God for the life I have.. If they can have a strong will to fight for their life and still be thankful despite of their condition.. Why should I, who have a “much better” life, complain and feel ungrateful about my life?
I’m grateful of my life and I thank the Lord for all His blessings… How about you? Have you give thanks for your life today? 🙂
1 Thessalonians 5 : 18
“Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus”
Deserve
Today’s EPM topic is about exam/examination
There’s something from today’s EPM that reminds me about one of my thought from few years back.
If we do this, then we deserve that.. If we work hard, then we deserve a good reward. But what will be our response if we didn’t get what we “deserve”? Complain? Angry? Blame others, the world of injustice or even God?
That makes me remember about the verse from 1 Timothy 6:6-8.
“But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.”
Instead of seeing it as something I deserve, It’d be better for me to see it as something that I never deserve, but only by His Grace that I can get this far.
Instead of complaining or angry or blaming, It’d be better to be content with what I have.
(Maybe that’s why sometimes I can’t stand it when people keep on complaining, instead of be content, grateful and be thankful with what they have)
And I also like to remind myself that I’m born with nothing so that I won’t complain about anything (though it’s hard to do it) It’s like when I’m born, my value is 0.. If tomorrow my value become 0.0001, then I should be thankful. It’s the same thing with exam.. Instead of complaining if I get B- or even C+.. Maybe I should start with being thankful for being able to get into university in the first place (which many people can’t make it)
And I believe, we’ll always have something to be grateful about no matter how bad our condition are..
(Hm.. Am I too naive?? Maybe I am… haha)
Existence
Still quite related with the previous post..
By wondering whether I’m just a phase in other people’s life or not, it can also means that I’m wondering whether my existence is important or have any meaning within other people’s life…
“Loneliness in crowd” (Kesepian di tengah keramaian) I believe most of us are quite familiar with this quote or even feeling about it recently..
While having that thought, I keep on wondering,” Why am I being ignored? Why none of my saying go through their minds? If I’m gone, will everything still be the same? Will anyone miss me or know that I’m gone?”
But in the end, I always come to the conclusion by asking,” Is it really important for people to acknowledge me? Do I really need it?”
May God become bigger in my life while I become “smaller”
Soli Deo Gloria
Phase
Okay… Since I can’t sleep because of same old reason… I’ll try to write for my 2nd blog and hopefully after this I can go to sleep
Phase
It’s the title for today.. The same thing that I share for “the Last Prayer Meeting” (wew.. kayak The Last Supper ja XD) today (to be exact it’s yesterday afternoon since it’s already past midnight)
“A distinct time period in a sequence of events” (taken from WordWeb)
Semua pemikiran ini berawal dari perenunganku tentang eksistensi diriku di dalam perspektif orang lain.. Apakah keberadaan kita akan membawa suatu dampak bagi orang lain ataukah kita hanya akan menjadi suatu fase bagi orang lain.. A flash in their life that will soon be forgotten?
Mungkin salah satu contoh yang bisa dipakai untuk menggambarkan tentang fase ini adalah sepakbola…
Sepakbola
Sepakbola adalah permainan strategi,teknik,dan fisik pemain dalam “mengolah” bola dan menghasilkan permainan indah yang dinikmati oleh jutaan orang2 sekarang (Piala Dunia da deket nih.. uhui :D)
Terdapat 22 pemain dalam 1 permainan sepakbola di mana lama permainannya adalah 90 menit + extra time,dll.. Di mana rata2 kesempatan setiap pemain untuk mengolah bola adalah sekitar 4 menit per game.. 4 menit bukanlah waktu yang banyak, tetapi itu dapat diolah oleh para pemain2 tersebut menjadi hattrick (mencetak 3 gol) ataupun menjadi kekacauan yang mengakibatkan kekalahan tim..
Hidup kita juga tidak ubahnya seperti para pemain bola tersebut.. Terutama bila dikaitkan dengan pelayanan kita sebagai mahasiswa di mana kita hanya mempunyai waktu 4 tahun di sini..
Bila bola tersebut dipassing kepada kita..Apakah kita akan memakai kesempatan tersebut untuk mencetak gol ataukah kita akan membuat own goal? Ingatlah bahwa kesempatan tidak akan selalu datang.. Dan apabila kesempatan itu datang.. Apakah kita akan tetap setia dan melakukan yang terbaik?
(Sigh.. I will surely miss this fellowship) =)
Urticaria
Okie dokie.. First time blogging.. and it’s all about what i’ve been struggling with for these two weeks.. Sigh.. =,=”
Allergic Urticaria..
“An itchy skin eruption characterized by weals with pale interiors and well-defined red margins; usually the result of an allergic response to insect bites or food or drugs” by WordWeb
Yeah.. This is what I’ve been struggling with.. Itchy… Hot weather… And all these red itchy bumps…
Though I’m getting better for the past few days, but somehow they re-appear today T-T Hopefully it’ll get better by tomorrow…
(Thank God it isn’t as itchy as it may seems) 🙂
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